i'm talking to u...

Dear, i'm talking to you. If only you can hear me. Having you is another great gift by Allah. As early as this, i can feel you inside me. Please dont blame me for what will happen and what is happening. One day, you will understand, life is not always what you want. Sometimes letting go what you love the most is the best thing to do.

Endless worried

For god sake, this 'latest' news shocked me. Neither it's wrong nor right, the what-if symptom keep haunting me. I cant imagine one fine morning, my husband no longer remember who am I. Pathetic. Allah, please protect us, from evils and the bad things.

It is good, to talk

Finally. It came out from me. It was obviously unbelievable. I might hurt him, indirectly, but I have to. I chose you as my husband, and I wanna chose you, as someone that I can talk to, for whatever things bordering me. I love u. So much.

B, I love u...

I love him with full of my heart, for what ever I had, for what ever I can. I love watching you sleep, it make me calm and realize, how important you are in my life. I'm sorry if I'm not being a good wife to you, if I can't always fulfill your wish, if i not be able to always help you. Please know, I'm trying...for you.

Forgiven, but I can't forget it

It's true. I still feel the pain. The pain of seeing my hubby treated that way. Though I'm opening my heart and soul to forgive, yes, it is still stuck in me. May Allah guide us thru, by His nur, so we are not being among them, take us far away from those bad feeling, from hurting others. Ya Allah, please forgive us on what we have done wrong. Amin.

They make us even stronger...

Too many things happen last week. Frustration, anger, sadness, heartbreaking and all. Yet it never turned us down. They made us even stronger to face the world. I saw him strugling to save us, this marriage. I knew he hurts with those words, I knew he torns with all that yelling. He is my husband, he is my life, he is part of me, I'll be beside him for what ever happen, I'll never turned my back to u. People tend to forget how forgiveful Allah, talking like they own this world. I believe one day, the times will come for them to be tested. Allah Maha Adil, Allah Maha Pengampun.